I took the cutest picture of Hunter hugging my best friend.
I CANT BREATHE
I want this song to go out in the world and not be about my critics, I want it to be about the girl who’s criticizing someone in eleventh grade because she thinks that her hair looks stupid. And that girl then goes and like cries in the bathroom because of it. These are things that we go through in every phase of our lives, starting a new job and there’s just someone who has it out for you. And I hope that maybe, you know, I had a lot of days when I would come home from school, and get in the car and my mom would try so hard to console me ‘cause someone had made fun of me or something had said something about me, or not invited me to something I was dying to go to. And she would always try to find songs that bring me out of that, and music always helped distract me from that, so I think my greatest hope is that this started out being about my life and I just want it to go out into cars, and speakers, and your phones, and become about their lives.
Reading this made me so sad because I love seeing you in your videos and photos being so happy and wide eyed, like the world isn’t harsh and unfair as it actually is. I hate thinking about your pretty face covered in tears, because I know why you’re crying because I’ve been in your place. This isn’t a high school thing or an age thing. It’s a people thing. A life thing. It doesn’t stop. It doesn’t end or change. People cut other people down for entertainment, amusement, out of jealousy, because of something broken inside them, or for no reason at all. It’s just what they do, and you’re a target because you live your life loudly and boldly. You’re bright and joyful and so many people are cynical. They won’t understand you and they won’t understand me. But the only way they win is if your tears turn you to stone and make you bitter like them. It’s okay to ask why. It’s okay to wonder how you could try so hard and still get stomped all over. Just don’t let them change you or stop you from singing and dancing around to your favorite song.